i need a haircut.

this hair is too long for my liking. ugh!

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i've been meaning to post a very very meaningful post but every time i'm sitting here in front of this desktop nothing came to my mind. damn it.

birthday was fabulous. got a pair of earring from Shafiqah Shawal, and a pair of Converse sneakers from hakim. tyvm.

i am not feeling sweet seventeen.

tata for now. yucks.

i have to say this;

- i hoped for ya but it didnt come.
- i liked what i posted before this one.
- i still want that record.


HAPPY 17TH TO ME! :D

We don't care if you talk to other guys.

We don't care if you're friends with other guys.

But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.

It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there

We don't care if a guy calls >OR TEXTS< you, but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned.

Nothing is that important at 2 a.m.

Also, when we tell you you're pretty/ beautiful/ gorgeous/ cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it.

Don't tell us we're wrong.

We'll stop trying to convince you.

The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.

Yeah, you can quote me.

Don't be mad when we hold the door open.

Take advantage of the mood we're in.

Let us pay for you! Don't "feel bad." We enjoy doing it. It's expected. Smile and say "thank you."

Kiss us when no one's watching.

If you kiss us when you know somebody's looking, we'll be more impressed.

You don't have to get dressed up for us.

If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the need to
wear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you own.

We like you for who you are and not what you aren't.

Honestly, i think a girl looks more beautiful when she's just in her pj's. Or my tshirt and boxers, not all dolled up

Don't take everything we say seriously.

Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it.

Don't get angry easily.

Stop using magazines/media as your bible.

Don't talk about how hott Chris Brown, Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney is in front of us.
It's boring, and we don't care. You have girlfriends for that.

Whatever happened to the word "handsome"/"beautiful"

I'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me with "Hey handsome!" instead of "Hey baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy" or whatever else you can think of.

On the other hand im not sayin i woulndnt like it ether...

Girls, I cannot stress this enough: if you aren't being treated right by a guy, dont wait for him to change.

Ditch his sorry butt, disgrace to the male population and find someone who will treat you with utter respect.

Someone who will honor your morals.

Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest.

Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes.

Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel.

Someone who will stop what they're doing just to look you in the eyes....and say "i love you" ..and actually mean it.

Give the nice guys a chance.

Guys repost this if you agree.

Girls repost this if you think it's cute.

Every Guy who isn't a jerk will agree with this, so we hope that all the girls that read this will repost this.

*Holdin Hands

Girls :If you want to hold his hand, gently bump into it a couple of times.
Guys : Grab it

*Cuddling

Girls : When you want to cuddle with him, tell him you're cold
Guys : Automatically move closer to her.

*Movies

Girls : During a movie, if he puts his arm around you, tilt your head on his shoulder
Guys : Lift her chin up and kiss her

*Loving each other

Guys : When she tells you she loves you, look deep into her eyes, give her a peck on the lips, and tell her you love her too... And mean it.

*Laying below the stars

Girls : When you're both laying under the stars, put your head on his chest and close your eyes as you listen to his steady heart beat
Guys : Whisper in her ear and link your hands with hers.


Girls repost as: written by a guy :)
Guys post as: girls need to realize

i am at home now alone not doing anything except for rotting here in front of this computer. results will be released on january, and its still a very very long way to go. damn, i havent worked my brain the way it always work for the past months and now i am guilty. does doing sudoku helps? i'm not entirely sure about it. :( soon, i'll be off to KL with sisters and mom to do more visitting. i dont know where to stay, since i have many choices. 1) my che' ngoh's house, 2) my ibu noor's house, 3) my ayah loh's house. all 3 choices are equally same, equally fun in its own way. shoot, somebody help this damsel in distress?

trip to country-side as aryn calls it was both fun and boring. it bores the shit and intestines and stomach out of me cos it rained terribly the first three days we were there. kids all got restless and nobody pays attention to nobody, except muaz? :) and we all fought for the computer games. for once in my life, you can call me a gamer. only when in kampung, tyvm. but but i learnt that zaki's as tall as a giraffe but very graceful when handling muaz. i learnt that najihah has the nicest heart, and farts silently and calmly, then smiles when farts made noise. haha. i learnt that wafi can be the largest cousin of all but he has a girlfriend, so his heart is also the softest, very sentimental. i learnt that lutfi is nine, weighs 40/50++, is almost my height but is very childish, and i felt like strangling him everytime he pesters me for the lappy every 1 minute. i learnt that alya is still quiet and its quite annoying knowing she's shy, and that she loves the game on my phone. i learnt that asna will be a prefect next year, and that she too has an awfully smart mouth and she talks alot. i learnt that ahnaf is growing more handsome and that the last time i can catch him when he runs away from me was, years ago. i learnt that aniq is turning 7!!! and he's starting school soon, and he's getting cheekier especially when playing pipe game in my phone and that cartoon was naked. OMFG. i learnt that muaz wajdi is the cutest baby of all, very smart and loves walking when not in walker. i learnt that Aina calls zaki, abang mati instead of abang zaki, and she'll laugh after that when we try to correct her. oh shit, i have too many fond memories but i'll sum them all up soon.

i also learnt that i am growing older. dang.











i dont need a lover/boyfriend to make me feel good. i only need that one kid who looks up to me and say, "eew, what the heck are you wearing?!?!" in malay and then ran away when i try to put ribbons on his head. :D



i love my tall and fat and giant and white and cute and pretty little cousins called Zaki Wafi Lutfi Najihah Amir Haikal Adam Azizah Alya Asna Ahnaf Aniq Sophea Laila Yasmin Aina Muaz.

i realize how fast time is flying. like a jet plane. wow.
i'll be turning 17 soon, on December 15th.
dad just turned 46 (!).


i want to post pictures of little cousins, my cute little and tall cousins. but i'm lazy. grah!

dont ask me anything. i'm hooked.

i think i love my job yesterday. dealing with kids sure is easy for me. :) i didnt like my initial job though, giving out coupons to those who'd like to do face painting. i hought I was supposed to be doing the painting. heck, no. si idecided to give myself a neew, and safer job, that is to help out Fairuz and Rauuf's booth, that is the health pyramid thingy. that was way funner. :D the whole place was effing muddy! UGH!. the minute we, as in me fairuz rauuf, stepped into the field, splat, mud covered feet. and they both wore shoes. lucky them i brought along plastic bags for just-in-case-measures, so they had a place to keep their shoes. i am so nice.

after, 8 hours, we were free to head home. each of us being richer by $50, heh. had dinner at burger king, talked a lil bit, and i was sent home by them. thank you dudes! :D




thats it for today, i just wanna watch one tree hill actually..





hey, you girlfriend!

i'm sorry but i'm starting to despise your attitude now. for whatever you did to your parents, really. c'mon, wake up.

sorry i used taylor swift's song which is so not original but i'm not quite done with my poem. yeah, i know.

so, mommy, i gave you my url and i wish you would someday just learn how to use this computer and surf the net, make a facebook account, reconnect with your friends.. its not that difficult you know. :) really. its just like math. first you look at how people do it, then you try. then you practice then you understand! see i remember! :D

hey mom,
i love you. oceans and mountains and sky wide. :)




from,
your first love when it came to kids,
your first hope when it comes to studies,
your first salvation when it comes to helps.

and so it began

i thought of the
color
design

whether it should be
long
or
above the knee

with
trails
or without

the accessories -
necklace
bangles
pantyhose
or/and the what nots


got my
shoes already


and yes
dont forget
i need a clutch

can someone help me?






*this only spells shopping. i got a couple of bills totalling around $100++.

Dearest Lee, Eima, Ami, Dya and Huda,
           shall we make a move one of the days this week? not procastination honey. Prom is in 11days. period. :D

i am 16 going 17 and i already have to make the biggest decision in my life. yeah.

where to go after Os? stick to college, then get to university and end there all because i'm afraid i'd forget how to do Math? or do i stick to going poly, get a diploma, work for 3 years then get into university and probably live dad's dream of seeing me be a teacher?

shit all this after Os thing sucks. because for one thing i suck at making decisions, afraid i'd end up getting everything wrong. another thing is that i'm afraid i'd hurt someone's feelings when i make my own decisions, one they dont particularly approve but will say yes to because it's my life. it is, is it not? damn. i grew more than 2 white hairs thinking of this. they always say, dont think about whre you wish to go till after you get the results. but, what the hell? you think the minute you get your results, and then you either jump or bury yourself, you can think exactly where you want to go? not for me, i think. oh i dont know.

its pretty intimidating knowing that everyone at your side of the family, is all university graduates. it is, very. its as close as impossible to find one that's never been to uni. really. i'm trying hard. really hard. been busting my ass off this year.

its pretty scary knowing that i'm seen as one of the brightest at your side of the family. i mean, who's the first to get that aggregate and went to the good school? but then, who's the first who dropped of and failed? me, thank you. well, i'm still moving on, am i not? i busted me ass this year. i'll prove to you i'd do well.

on an entirely different note, i've been looking and finding the cheapest and fastest flights to kelantan. exams would be over soon. so i thoguht i'd fly to kampung first, before anybody.and i the first thing i'm going to do there is EAT. request for vege soup from grandma, and eat. yeah. i worked pretty hard losing weight now so i can gain them when i'm there. smart. i'm wieghing 43 kg, standing 5 foot 2 and a half. :) so by the time i'm there i hope to be, 47? HAHAHA. like hell.

i'm still scared i might forget how to do Mathematics when i get older..










shit, am i easily amused?

i watched Lord of the Rings : two towres last night and neglect my duties as a student to study.

tmw's english paper. Good Luck. :D

i am back for another meaningless entry. dearest readers, you may now delete me from your favorites. ugh.

yesterday was the last day of my school life. no more uniforms,(unless i go college next year.) no more kind teachers. no more BFF who'd scream at you just to get your attention. :P more like, no more shouting for BFF. AARGh, i cannot believe i'm almost done wtih school. well, after Os it'll be just done. no almost. but anyway, really. i cant believe it. talked to mother just now. time flies. i still remember walking tohru gate C in KPS with kakak fatin every morning. hoping to find azizah but nuh uh. and NOW, i'm no more wearing uniform, no more textbooks workbooks exercise books. haha. wow.

i am 16 going on 17, already. one moment i was the only cute, adorable, most special (HAHAHAHAH) grandchild of my grandparents, the next moment, i have, Zaki, Arinah, Najihah, Wafi, Amir, Haikal, Annisa', Alya, Lutfi, Adam, Asna, Sophea, Ahnaf, Laila, Aniq, Azizah, Yasmin, Aina, Muaz, and another one coming up soon, who are equally cute, equally adorable, equally special in my grandparents' eyes. oh dear, am i old?

i think i am, because mom and dad are getting older too. one of the numerous jobs/chores i have to do at home is plucking off the grey/white hairs from my parents' head. damn it, i do not wish to do that anymore, cos it kills me. not because i see they're getting old, but because it reminds me that i'm no longer a kid, no longer without responsibilty, no longer allowed to be dependent on someone else. actually, also because i see they're getting old too. dad'll be 46, mom's 42. i am 17. i wish they dont have to grow old. ;'(

i have 9 days left to my first written paper, 5 days to science practical. wish me luck. :) the next post will be the pictures of last day of school.